so our holiday plans have been ruined by the storm. i can not get to virginia until thursday or friday so we are going to in-laws first, then to see my family on christmas day (we have celebrated on xmas eve for 19 years, i may cry all day about missing it). at least the airline canceled the flight early enough so i did not havwe to drag sweet m and wait for delay after delay after delay.
but i think now i want to move back south. i love boston and our friends and V is doing so well at work, but i am so far from my family. my youngest sister is in high school and my dad still works (he is only 54), so they can not just come up whenever they want. and i will soon (hopefully) have two babies and will not be able to pop down every 6 or 8 weeks like i usually do. i am starting wonder wtf i am going to do when these kiddies are born.
i am just really sad about missing christmas eve. and of course the weather for friday morning is being forcast as lousy and rainy/snowy already so i am certain i will spend this holiday away from my family. i knew there would be a time when we would have to stop making the annual christmas trek, but i thought we could cut out the inlaws first :)
Monday, December 21, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
a new panic
well not really panic, but getting there.
i seem to be over the worry that something is going to go wrong with this pregnancy. the babies are moving every day now, and my belly is getting rather large. i am 22 weeks, 4 days pregnan and actually had to think about that for a couple of seconds (instead of knowing immediately). my thoughts of "if these babies" have been replaced with "when these babies."
my new obsession is about what the heck i am going to do with two infants and a toddler. stroller, cribs, high chairs etc. i wish i did not buy such expensive things, as i will now need another of each! what size to buy for these kids? preemie? newborn? 0-3 mos? heavy or lightweight assuming they make it to end of march?
i just bought a bunch of clothes ranging from newborn to 3 months. this after asking a random woman pushing her twins around the mall what size. (she said preemie for 2 months??!!)
so the stress level seems to be leveling off. i am now enjoying being pregnant. and obsessing over names. and whether or not to move or stay in boston for another year in our 2 bedroom apartment. (we LOVE living in city and i know many famlies who have 3 kids in 2BR or 2 kids in 1BR.)
i can finally say i do not think about infertlity every single day. yes, it is an awful journey, but once you overcome, the joy is overwhelming.
i seem to be over the worry that something is going to go wrong with this pregnancy. the babies are moving every day now, and my belly is getting rather large. i am 22 weeks, 4 days pregnan and actually had to think about that for a couple of seconds (instead of knowing immediately). my thoughts of "if these babies" have been replaced with "when these babies."
my new obsession is about what the heck i am going to do with two infants and a toddler. stroller, cribs, high chairs etc. i wish i did not buy such expensive things, as i will now need another of each! what size to buy for these kids? preemie? newborn? 0-3 mos? heavy or lightweight assuming they make it to end of march?
i just bought a bunch of clothes ranging from newborn to 3 months. this after asking a random woman pushing her twins around the mall what size. (she said preemie for 2 months??!!)
so the stress level seems to be leveling off. i am now enjoying being pregnant. and obsessing over names. and whether or not to move or stay in boston for another year in our 2 bedroom apartment. (we LOVE living in city and i know many famlies who have 3 kids in 2BR or 2 kids in 1BR.)
i can finally say i do not think about infertlity every single day. yes, it is an awful journey, but once you overcome, the joy is overwhelming.
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