huh?

i had a doctor appointment yesterday. i was called back 50 minutes after the appointment time. my dad is a doctor and i understand that emergencies happen, but they had called me last week to tell me i my doctor wasn't available and i was rescheduled with someone else. fine. but an hour to wait? with a 3 year old?

then i get back where they nurse comes in with the flu shot. i had to explain i had mine at the last appointment.
then she starts telling me what will happen at my ERA testing. i explain i had it last week.
then she listens to the heartbeats and makes sure i know that they could be hearing the same one twice, not two different bc it is hard to tell without ultrasound. yes, i understand that too.

then they send in a midwife who asks if i have any questions and when i say no says to make an appointment for 4 weeks from now. with twins they actually have me come in every 3 weeks. i did not even say anything bc i do not want to go back at all.

now i know i am acting crazy with this pregnancy but i do not think it is crazy to expect the doc or nurse to take 30 seconds outside the door to skim my chart and act like they give a shit. and i think i deserve to act crazy. it was a long fucking road and suddenly last week i am diagnosed high risk and then this week i don't even meet with my own doctor. what the hell? MGH is affectionately(?) called "man's greatest hospital" but i am not feeling it. i think i like a smaller practice and the same couple of nurses and doctors who pretend to give a shit.

i live in the same neighborhood as MGH but reall think i should switch to another hospital. my poor doctor, who i was a teensy bit skeptical about because he finished his fellowship in may 2009 and i was so nervous, is going to get an earful, likely with tears, in four weeks from yesterday.

am i crazy?