dr. google

so i have been ferociously googling anything and everything that will prepare me for a canceled cycle.

my own doctor's office has not suggested we might cancel, they only say non-comforting things such as "time will tell" or "we are on the slow and steady route." but i am certain my numbers are horrid. i only hope we can do the retrieval and hope for an FET next month. or at the very least, an IUI this month.

dr. google on the other hand has me just about convinced we will not be able to move ahead with our first IVF. seems i was definitely not aware of how pitiful IVF success rates are with a too-thin uterine lining. (if your lining is very thin i do not suggest typing "thin uterine lining IVF" or "IVF success thin uterine lining" into your google search box.)

then i found this: http://www.sart.org/find_frm.html

these are IVF success rates from SART (Society of Reproductive Technologies). i looked up my clinic and selected the "unknown" diagnosis. then "uterine". then "multiple female factors."

the outcome is grim. pregnancy rates are around 50% except when infertility factor is noted as uterine. then it drops to 33%.

after a whole hour, on a gorgeous spring day in boston, spent surfing IVF info on the web, i now plan to ask dr. goog about early symptoms of insanity.