it's time.

so i had over 22 follicles to count today. a couple over 20 but most others b/t 14-18. doctor says i will likely trigger tonight, with ER on saturday morning. my lining is 11 which she said is great. doctor seemed to think all was fabulous/perfect. if this does not work, i will hopefully resign to the fact that it is completely out of my control.

all is fine except for scheduling.

first V is speaking at a dinner tonight. i think the trigger will pretty late however as ER's begin at 10 on saturdays.

and saturday we will both need to be at clinic...without sweet M. this is when not living near my mom makes me sad. i will have to find a friend to drop him off with and have V pick him up when his "job" is done.

and V is going to be OOT on tuesday which will hopefully be the day-3 transfer. he already rescheduled this meeting 2X (once due to this cycle), so i hate to ask him to do it again. especially as he is building quite a practice for himself now and woul dneed to be in office anyway.

so i am thinking of seeing if we could fly my mom up to help on tuesday. she could take M to playground/museum etc. and i could follow the rest-of-day bedrest instructions without panicking that i am going to knock anything loose (which i know is not possible but still fret about month after month whether it is IUI or natural cycle.) flights are about $800 now which sucks.

V's family is closer but his folks are older and not able to chase M around. it is sad but we are both a bit uncomfortable leaving a very/super/uber active toddler with them. more out of concern for their safety than his i think! and in fairness to M, he does need to run around a bit each day. we may invite them for friday night and let them hang in apartment with M while we go....who knows.

i am just going to wait for the call confirming the trigger is tonight.

in the meantime, i am completely petrified this will not work. or my follies will not have eggs. or the eggs will not be mature. or not fertilize or etc. etc. etc.