ivf injection blooper #1

due in large part to BCPs and lupron: i have been a bear/pill/witch/bitch lately. i am crabby/tired/sad/enraged and i take it out on V -- although he does cause a bit of my frustration with his lack of support. well his parents just moved back home (upstate NY) after spending the winter in FL and i thought it would be nice for V to surprise them with a visit.
*we chose to surprise for two reasons: 1. so they would not run around trying to unpack and clean--they are in late 70s and coming off a two-day car journey and 2. V's brother was having everyone up for dinner so his parents could take it easy and not worry about dinner.

i did have to pack and plan for my first gonal-f/repronex injection that evening. if you have not done it before, you get a couple of vials and needles for each drug. (one needle to mix and one to inject with.) but on saturday night i slipped away unnoticed to my niece's bathroom and unpacked the drugs from my purse. after a minute all was mixed and ready for the injection.

but...i have never injected this much fluid -- 1 cc -- and was a bit scared. i also usually ice for a minute but did not have a cube. managed to get the needle in and pushed the plunger.

nothing.

it would not push in. i did not want to take out and re-try because i have irrational fear of dull needles due in large part to the informational board at my cvs magnifying the tips of used needles. i started getting frantic and hot, so took off my sweater with needle stuck in thigh. i called down to V for an ice cube. i finally pushed as hard as i could using both hands. it was first time i actually bled after shot. i hurriedly packed up the three vials, the mixing needle tips, and the syringe so no one would be the wiser and went downstairs for dinner. perfect until...

saturday morning i am hungover. i unpack purse and roundup injection stuff so M will not get into it. where is the syringe? i rifle through purse. i empty purse. i look in empty purse again. no syringe. i must have left on windowsill. in 17 year old niece's bathroom.

V's family does not know what we are going though. long story short i nervously wait until 9am to call my sister in law. tell her i may have left syringe in her daughter's bathroom. have to explain why i have syringe. and of course...

i find syringe on floor of car later in morning.

this is why i do not like to travel during an injectible cycle.