Wednesday, July 29, 2009

addiction

OMG. the POAS addiction is getting the best of me. and oddly, with this first full IVF cycle, i have only tested twice. i am usually 8-10 a (medicated) cycle.

after a negative on monday i swore i would not again until tomorrow. the day i believe will give me a definitive answer. and i still have no new symptoms. in fact my boobs are getting less sore each day.

so what do i do? i POAS 6 minutes ago.

and what do i see? nothing.

until 2 minutes ago. there is a EFBTL (an extremely faint barely there line) if you stand out on the balcony and hold it up to the sunlight. can it be an evap line if it has not evaporated?

it is not that dark and this is the cheapest test i have ever bought (except those in bulk from the internet). thanks to all the wonderfully brave, strong ladies who actually blog in public (i am a wus), i know a line is usually a line, but i am not buying it. instead, i am packing up M and heading to CVS to buy more tests.

please god. please.

**UPDATE: almost two hours later -- BFN with ept certainty digital. i knew i was imagining things.

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