crazy or just infertile?

i took a HPT last wednesday on CD31. of course it was negative because...
my period started late last thursday on CD32.

i started BCPs on friday morning to prep for IVF#1. since then i have noticed:

my boobs have grown heavy and slightly larger/moderate morning nausea starting a bit after i swallow birth control pill/i have been very sleepy/my veins have been very noticeable/that i can not stop eating.

so i just stopped into cvs and bought another HPT.

am i crazy or did i forget:
the BFN from last week/that i am still having my period/that BCPs actually cause some of these symptoms and that the others are the same made-up symptoms i have experienced every. single. cycle. since we began TTC#2 in april 2007?

and to make matters worse it was the first time i have ever had a dud. nothing showed up in the window. not negative. of course not a positive. just a total dud test. and of course i just bought a 1-pack so there would be absolutely/positively no way V would find (more) evidence that i may be certifiably insane.

and i am still holding out hope i may be pregnant.

even though i know i am not.