mother

i speak to my mother most days. not always on weekends as we hang with our respective families, but usually at least once a day during the week. i consider her as much a friend as my mom.

she knows everything about my inferility struggles. she does not act like she understands, but offers compassion. she listens to me cry when i get me period. she offers support. she is always telling me it will happen again. she told me this with each of 9 IUI's. she does not understand it may not.

her sister was just diagnosed with breast cancer. their mother died due to breast cancer. i saw my mother and aunt in dc last weekend. my aunt had surgery to remove the cancer three weeks ago. she will begin radiation this week, but thankfully will not need chemotherapy. she will survive.

she cried a lot. she was emotionally weak. i was strong for her. my mother was strong for her.

my mother did not ask how i was doing. i cried a lot. and i was emotionally weak.

and i realize that i am always telling my mother about my IF woes. she is never asking.